Friday, February 2, 2007

Non-Publishable Ramblings Part II

The call of life seems so live for You, share You and portray You in all aspects of life. So easily things get led astray and blinded by the 'mountains' of life. Selfishness so easily invades the heart and life becomes about us, instead of being about You. Everything about You should truly be satisfying, comforting, protecting and enduring enough, in all circumstances, whether good or bad, but for me, it's not always black and white. Does that mean I'm blasphemous and disobedient to You, the call You've place on my life and to who You truly are? I guess we'll discuss that down the road sometime. I know at the end of the day, I do truly want to do what's the best for all involved, but especially in terms of You.

I find no hope within to call my own
For I am frail of heart, my strength is gone
But deep within my soul is rising up a song
Here in the comfort of the faithful one.

I walk a narrow road through valleys deep
In search of higher ground, on mountains steep
And though with feet unsure, I still keep pressing on.
For I am guided by the faithful one.

(Faithful One by Selah)

I'm not perfect, never will be. I should be out in the world more, serving those around me more, simply living life socially and all other aspects more. But I don't and that brings me down. People don't understand it and a lot of times don't understand me. I sometimes find myself in the predicament of not knowing how to live life and relate to the people around me effectively and full full circle, then feeling the cloud of failure, inadequacy, inferiority and all that other crap which climbs aboard.

Faithful, faithful to the end
My true and precious friend,
You have been faithful,
Faithful, so faithful to me

And when the day is dawned and when the race is run
I will bow down before God's only Son
And I will life my hands in praise for all you've done
And I will worship you, my faithful one.
(Faithful One by Selah)

The marvel of Your faithfulness...even when we don't show an ounce of it, You never leave our sides. You are a true and precious friend...You head all, are there no matter what the hour and stand by even when no one else chooses to. The time will come when we do stand before see that kneel before You with uplifted hands and endless praise...that will truly be the sweetest worship session we ever enter into.

Why you prompt these ramblings sometimes, I don't know, especially when the publish button will most likely never be hit on this one. Doesn't exactly scream interesting thread, does it? But to You, it's exactly the thread I was supposed to write. I guess there's something to take away and possibly a post to birth as well. I guess the art of simply clearing my head of the non-essential and potentially harmful fog needs to happen, wherever the words might take form.

Your love endures forever...You are timeless and priceless...ever-changing and at the same time never changing. Always there, present and ready to jump into love, comfort, strengthen, reprimand, heal, etc. Yeah, that's a good thread to leave in my head tonight.........

Non-Publishable Ramblings

There doesn't have to be an explanation for every event which happens in this lifetime. Things won't always be peachy, how you want them or perceived how you think they should be. Bad things happen and sometimes it pours down in a torrential flood.

You have choices in all things...choose to deal with what comes your way, live through it and come out stronger....or choose to let it get the best of you, rob and strip you of everything you are and become am empty shell of who you once were. You can choose life, despite all which might fly your way or you can choose death, which might come in a large variety of ways...from emotional to social to imminent death from this world by your own actions.

Life is full of consequences and choices....there are pros and cons to each and everyone. Not everything is worth the fight and will never be able to change some things. You need to make choices with care, 'cause they all have eternal consequences in a variety of levels, especially those choices dealing with choosing death from things. We will all have to stand before Him and give an account of our life...choices and actions, both good and bad. That accountability meeting will happen, whether we choose to make it happen sooner or allow it to happen at the scheduled appointment.

Whether a person tries to take control, decide the fate of their life themselves and then have to give an explanation of why they potentially sold life short or they find a way to give over complete control, find strength in Him and learn to live through what comes their way and allow themselves to experience all that He potentially has planned for their life. Life's sometimes a huge seesaw—depending on the day, both sides of the coin glisten and catch the eye.

I guess the real question is which side will be most eternally satisfying?