I'm Losing It...

"You have to lose your mind in order to gain control of it."

Have to say that I don't even know where I got this one from. But, it made some good sense. Seems that after those days when things are at their worst and you wish that you were anywhere except the present, some of the greatest clarity comes.

I guess you could say that it's kinda like 'losing your mind'. Once everything's completely lost, then comes the rebuilding of what should be there. Then comes the regaining of control that somehow went AWOL throughout the rhythms of life.

But the end of the day goal should be, to move towards fewer of those episodes, similar to a bungee jumping life and more towards the constant line, where some semblance of constant becomes the norm.

One-Way?

"Ministry is never a one-way street..."

This quote seems to be at the forefront of my mind, in terms of all aspect of ministry...'cause in my mind, life is a huge ministry, as well as those jobs you do in the church. Thinking about what you do when you realize that things might be on a one-way street and how you deal with it, without seeming selfish and self-absorbed.

Or if you feel unappreciated...taken advantage of...are you simply being selfish for thinking it?

Attitudes

My attitude as I begin a task will affect its outcome more than anything else.

My attitude toward others determines their attitude toward me.

My attidue is the major difference between success and failure.

My attitude can turn my problems into blessings.

My attitude can give me an uncommon perspective on life.

My attitude is my best friend or my worst enemy.

My attitude, not my achievements, will give me happiness.

My attitude will change when I choose to change it.

My attitude needs continual adjustments.

My attitude is contagious.

~Skip Ross

This fell into my hands last winter. It yelled volumes at me as I struggled to find balance and a positive mindset. There's that saying that you're seeing the world through rose coloured glasses...well it seemed for me that I was seeing it through darkened and negative glasses.

For me, my attitude is definitely all the above things. If I come in with a positive attitude, it doesn't matter whether or not I am sick or had the worse day, I find a way to get through things and achieve all that's supposed to be achieved. But then there are those days where I walk into things defeated and essentially fail at what I'm attempting, because I can't see past the defeat in my heart.

As the continued trek towards balance and peacefulness in my life happens, I am becoming more mindful of my mindset and my attitude. I am beginning to check my attitude daily, hourly and sometimes every moment, if feels necessary to do so. The realization is, that this is probably the biggest key to obtaining the balance and peacefulness that I am striving so strongly to obtain in my life.